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Friday, 05 October 2007

  • Apology

    Hey - ok. I am very sorry for apparently causing panic among a few people who read my previous note. Um...so yeah. I am not considering suicide or anything like that. I don't think that my life is about to crash in on me. I don't think anyone is about to die. It is nothing like that. I will be absolutely fine and I have all the trust that God will use this to teach me amazing things. I have hope that throughout these trials God will grant me perseverance, character, and even more hope. I trust that there is an even greater plan in motion than what I can see right now. All this said, life isn't always easy, but nothing worth having is. I covet your friendship and your prayers. Thank you and I am sorry if I caused any concern.
  • Currently Listening
    Wincing the Night Away
    By The Shins
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    Impending Doom

    You know that point in a movie where the characters realize that something horrible is about to happen, but they just can't piece together the clues to figure out what it is? Well, for some reason I have that feeling right now. That sounds awful, but it's true. I mean, my life is going pretty well. There are certainly things that could be different or better, but in comparison with the general population of the globe, I have nothing to be bitter about. It just seems as though there is some sort of storm brewing on the horizon. I keep cringing, hoping that feeling in my gut will subside and I can go back to sleep. Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe I am lacking that whole "women's intuition" thing and this is simply a case of prolonged indigestion. (No, I am not pregnant, so it isn't that. It would explain the guttural feeling and the weird food cravings, but it definitely isn't that.) I just wish whatever it is would just happen so that I can begin to deal with it. It's no fun to cry yourself to sleep when you don't really know what you are crying about.

    Thought #2: I am so thankful for the friends that have been there for me no matter what. No matter what life brings or how much I may screw up and let you down, you have never stopped being there for me. I just can't even tell you how much that means to me. I am constantly reminded how sinful I am, but you guys are always there to remind me how much Christ loves me too. I pray that God will bless you ten-fold in the way you have blessed me. From midnight phone calls, to listening to my gripe sessions, to morning phone calls and lots of cake. From crying with me to simply telling me I am beautiful. We all know that I am not fantastic at talking about how I feel, but please, please know that even if I was great at it, there wouldn't be words sufficient to describe how much I love you. Throughout the last few months so many things have happened, and so many of my friendships have changed, but you have remained steady and constant in my life. Thank you and I love you.

Friday, 31 August 2007

  • Currently Listening
    Grease (Original 1978 Motion Picture Soundtrack)
    By Olivia Newton-John, John Travolta, Stockard Channing, Frankie Valli
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    Things I have learned...

    Here are a few (or more than a few, which I guess would be several) things that I have learned over the summer.

    1. Despite being made fun of for carrying it with me everywhere, cajun seasoning is good on everything. Except ice cream. The kicker is, everyone of those people that made fun of me fell in love with the stuff once they tried it. Then they were asking me if I brought it with me everyday.

    2. A little bit of hurt now is better than a lot of pain later. At least that's what I am hoping for.

    3. I was not made to live in the jungle.

    4. White shirts and black skirts get old after, oh, four months or so.

    5. Being where God wants me is way more important than staying comfortable. Even though it doesn't always make sense, and it isn't easy, and it isn't what I want. That's the point where I need to start praying that my heart's desires would become more like God's. He isn't the one off track, it's me. It's hard. Really, really, really hard.

    6. Red shoes are really fun.

    7. My face doesn't melt off when it is 126 degrees outside. I thought it might, but it doesn't.

    8. Never spend time at Newport on the Levee by myself. You meet creepy guys that way.

    9. The business world is much more complex than I thought. Min/max reports, inventory, purchase orders, price increases, web sites, requisitions and transfers. All these terms and more are now included in my vocabulary. Some correctly and some I am still guessing about.

    10. When someone asks you to do something "copy" is only a correct response in certain situations. In general words like "affirmative," "negative," "miscount," "gen-dec," and "higher outbound" aren't words to just throw around. They are appropriate for certain places. McDonald's is not one of them. Also, not everyone operates on military time. And not everyone knows where Zulu is.

    11. When someone is running towards me, furious and yelling, I don't like to have someone behind me start yelling at them. It makes me feel frightened and insecure.

    12. People are people. They always will be. As such, imperfection is passed on from generation to generation.

    13. People are dumb. Well, ok, not all people and not all the time. But I have learned that when people are in an unfamiliar setting or situation, they (hopefully) act differently than they normally would. For some reason, logic and reason leaves the brain and is replaced by an inability to think for oneself as well as the inability to read. There is a saying that is, "There are no stupid questions." I beg to differ. I believe that there are indeed stupid questions. "No ma'am. You are not supposed to turn and try and walk through the concrete wall to get to your plane. Just walk straight ahead down the hallway and when you see the correct number and city, you go out that door." Sigh.

    14. If you expect people to be stupid (see above) you aren't as surprised when they are.

    15. Radio stations play the most annoying songs every hour. EVERY hour. Why? Don't ask me.

    16. Apparently it is uncomfortable for a guy to search through another guy's pants pockets.

    17. You can survive the black lung.

    18. It is also possible to survive on 6 hours of sleep a night. Who knew that you didn't need more than that? You may want more, but you don't need more.

    19. When you leave the house at 715a and return at 1130p, you will be tired. Now repeat.

    20. People simply want to be respected. No matter how they dress or what they look like, they simply want to be treated with respect.

    There may be more to come. But I figured 20 was enough to start with.

Tuesday, 24 July 2007

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